I have come to realise something:
I am responsible for what I do.
Holy cow, now that is a totally obvious concept, yes? But really, seriously...
The only way that things occur in my life, things that I want to achieve, things that I want to do, things that I want to become, is when I become responsible for them. If I want to become more outgoing, it's not going to be when someone clicks their fingers, or better yet, their red sparkly shoes. It will only begin when I take responsibility for that change.
Now, I know this is sounding very psychology-type-lingoish. Correct. But really and truly, I believe it. I was speaking with a very wise woman today, and she said...
"You become what you want."
Do you believe it? Do I really become more outgoing just because I want to become more outgoing? Well, not straight away, no. But if I've become aware of the lack of outgoing behaviour in my life, then I am more likely to do something about it and change my behaviour.
So this blog isn't just me ranting about my angst and wishing I would change. Good lord, I would not put you through reading that. I wouldn't put myself through writing that. But this blog is more about going into the dress-up cupboard and trying on different outfits and finding which one is the right one for me. I'm not saying that I'm trying to become what I'm not. It's about becoming what I am.
So if you wanna join me on this little writing journey, then keep checking back and let's see what costumes I come up with. Perhaps a Wonder Woman cape is in order?